I’m suppose to sleep, need to wake up at 4am later which is approximately another 4 hours more to go. I’m an owl, I only hunt when it’s midnight. wtf
Let me tell u a story, a story that I felt so tired of.
Things had been going wild lately, a friend of mine decided to get angry with me just because I hung up on her phone. She called me rude for that, but all i did was just that I didn’t say goodbye. Besides, throughout the entire conversation going on, she was in utter denial. I really couldn’t bring myself into continuing it. I’m afraid I would end up not just hung up on her but cursing her as well. I don’t usually burst into anger but once I do. It doesn’t look sweet.
As u see, this is seriously a very teeny tiny issue. No point being utterly emotional because of it. I tried to let it fade off like how i usually did but she just decided to hold on to the moment. The moment where it doesn’t even have to hold on to but to let it go because I myself already brush it off like an ADULT. Then it was when situation turn ugly, she was throwing blame into other people but herself. She was living in denial. People that know her was being called vagina face, or eat poo or whatever by her.
Now you understand? It was seriously a very small matter, not point putting a huge fuss over it. We’re friends, I could brush it off IF you don’t play it this big. Excuse me, I’m an adult myself. I don’t think what you did was worth my forgiveness, I did attempt to take it has nothing ever happen and talk back to you BUT you decided to throw me pebbles again.
First she decided to play hide and seek with me at MSN, which I didn’t know at first but one of our mutual close friend told me that’s when I know. I brush it off, just taking it that she was naive and childish. What she did was only primary kids would do. Then she decided not to play hide and seek at MSN, but play Now You See Me Now You Don’t at Facebook, I stil did the same, ignore it like a mature adult would do.
It turns worst when the bag I lent it to her, and she refer the owner of the bag as someone else. For god’s sake, we use to be very close with each other and because of such small matter, she’s refering me by someone else in front of my friends. That doesn’t seems like respect to me, and since u’re lend my things your suppose to give me back to me face to face and say thank you. Nope, you have your wrong guess. She didn’t give it back to me personally and when my friend ask her to give me back personally she said she doesn’t want to see me. What I have a vagina face right now is it? and when I drove my friend to her place to get my bag back, she walk right out pass it to my friend, didn’t say thank you, didn’t show a single smile and the face was as dark as storming cloud. EXCUSE ME, where is your manners? I thought during kindergarden our teacher teach us to say thank you if people help you out. I’m not yearning for that word, but I just think ur being impolite and rude. She didn’t say a single word and walk right back in. I was stunned. How a small matter could ruin a friendship.
Then, she decided to play what primary student would play. The write big big but No ball to show it. She wrote something like very obviously refering to me and my friends about wasting our parents money. I was really angry reading it because first, she herself was jobless for a few months being at home and using her parents money as well and her last comment really pour kerosene to me was saying we have no guts to comment on her status. I was like FUCK YOU! you play Now You See Me Now You Don’t at Facebook with me, do you think I could comment on it. I don’t even know if weren’t for friends telling me what they saw. After reading I felt like she was slapping back at her face through writing it. It was as if she didn’t use her brain wisely before writing it. I just laugh it off like an adult would do.
I was being very forgiving because though she didn’t say thank you to me, I still sms her a message saying thanks for giving my bag back, even though it should be her writing it. She did reply me with one sentence, u r welcome. I was like FUCK. It felt more like i owned her something that she is to me. Then, when i thought situation has calm down, she decided to go chirp at some random sites saying very obviously saying me also. She referred that I’m being FAKE, and talk behind people’s back and something like karma would find me back. Nope, i didn’t stalk her, my friends decided to call me in the middle of the night to tell me about it. Yes, my friends all damn sweet. wtf. At first I thought I would be very mad, angry and yelling my lungs out but it turns out I didn’t. I just ignore her, I just take it that she was throwing pebbles again and again but to me right now It felt more like eating popcorn from each pebbles she throws. I mean, what’s the point if i really go and play immature with her, by writing status and personal message that very obviously meant that it was her. It would not make situation turn better just make it turn worst.
If she wanted to keep it going, just let her have the fun herself. I don’t meant to be mean, we could all see who’s being right and wrong here. If i was seriously being fake, the friends that we both mutually have would side her but nope they didn’t. I’m not saying that I have some seriously backup behind of me. It’s just that people know what’s right and wrong. If i’m being wrong, nobody would even want to find me. When the incident happen, they still wanted to mend it because we were friends, but you’re making it tough for them. It was as if they were begging you for forgiveness, then they gave up on you. You let your friendship slip away through your grip just because of ur denial.
The whole gossip issue, I told straight to my friend that I did do that and I feel bad about it but right now I won’t. If i want to gossip, I’ll just shoot you directly. I think through this incident, it make me felt more mature and better in handling friends. Right now, any discomfort is tell directly, previously we only tell this one person and then it turns into backstab. I told my friends no backstabbing anymore, let’s just to this way our adult way.
I could act like you into writing more mean and honest journal but I decided not to because if i were to go into more detail. It would seems that you were just an annoying bitch. I let u live in denial but I ain’t letting you back into my tracks.
I’m sorry but you’ve missed my station, the next time i see you in other station. I’ll just act as an adult and say Hi! and then Bye! That’s the best I could do as you’ve gone too far this time.