Feeling Holiday-ing

Harlow dear blog,

I’m very sorry that I’ve neglected you again once I start my holiday. I’m having an ultimate semester break even though it’s merely for 2 weeks. I manage to see my baby and also go for a short getaway. I think that was what matters most. Even that could get quite tiring but i’m totally enjoying it.

Let me re-summarize how i did for my finals for Year2 Sem1.

I wouldn’t say it was blardy good, but yet i wouldn’t say it is damn bad either. it’s in the middle of both.

First paper was *trying to squeeze the memory out of my peanut memory* Public Speaking. Somehow nailed it, i think. Tips came out quite accurate thank god. but the last question i just hentam only. not much idea

Next paper was PRST, which nearly killed me. Suppose to think of a program planning event in the mere 1 hour time given. and not to mention another 8 tactics on way to promote a event. I think after the exam almost 80% all went saying ‘I’m going to take the yellow form from the admin, see the paper again next sem’. Yes, it was that hard. I just hope that i’ll pass it, hanging in the middle upper also okay. So long i don’t need to go through the hell of doing revision again for it can already.

For english and MNG paper, i think was alright. No that hard, just some very tricky questions.

and pyschology was acceptable, but a few topics that i studied no balls came out. translation paper was time dragging.

and also i think this is the first semester that out off 5 subject, 4 of the papers i came out early. I think i’ve grow old, not die die also wanna maximize the use of the time. Even though i know the 30minutes i’m inside also nothing could be produce. the only paper that i maximize is non other than PRST. fts.

Oh yeah, and to break the record. English paper was the first paper that I was late because when to eat pan mee with Beannie and also the earliest one that i came out because Beannie bitch is outside waiting for me to go shopping. Yes, inside the college waiting for me while reading Detective Conan manga.

blog, please make sure i pass all my papers, really don’t wanna do the revision for it all over again, it sucks.

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My exam for this semester is also damn many event, party, and god-knows-what-that-drag-me-out-of-the-house. In between the exams, i’ve got Puffin’s birthday party, brother’s birthday dinner, Present buying, wedding scouting for clothes, Kit Mun’s wedding, Clubbing and many other randoms stuffs. for the 2 weeks, almost half of it i’m out. with the worst was, i’m having a translation paper on Monday, and Sunday was Kitmun’s wedding with ended with adjourning for clubbing. Let’s say I had the worst hangover on that day. Couldn’t even bear to focus much on the paper. just wish that i could finish it asap and get my ass back home and SLEEP! and not forgetten i went to matta fair too.

But the sem break was also well spent. with having my baby with me my baby loves me much too. The whole week i’m back, he sticks to me most of the time. especially night, sleeping by my side. It felt great having people dependent to u

yet

In need of 10 more hours of sleep

I’m so tired that if you chuck a blanket and pillow for me i’ll sleep right away.

Just done with one of my papers.

It’s 11.11am now, took 4mins to walk to my car, another 30mins to drive home, 10mins to do housechores, 5 mins to bath and 15mins to go out buy my favourite kolo lou shu fun. You do the math on what time i finish my paper which was suppose to be done at 11am but i finish earlier.

Never been this tired for quite sometimes, in the span of 2 days i’ve slept for less than 8 hours. Something tells me i’ll fall sick real soon.

Somehow this semester has been that craziest exam semester i had. Would type that out sometimes later. now i wanna go enjoy my favourite meal. *slurps

Beach please!

am feeling super lazy to start my pyschology revision, kept having the mentality that since got objective wouldn’ be any hard anyway.

Anyway, still did abit of revision, but don’t really remember much except for the parietal, frontal, occiptal and temporal.

and on the side note, my laptop is showing a sign of old age vandalism, the keypad for the ‘T’ alphabet is conk-ed. Doesn’t seems to work properly already, of all alphabet it had to be the letter ‘T’. Getting extremely frustrated whenever the ‘t’ doesn’t appear when i type on the keypad. if take to repair, don’t know cost how much. sometimes i do wonder am i a perfectionist, because i can’t take it when a small little thing bother me. Even when i were to arrange a set of culinary, i would make sure it’s at the proper position, and vertically and horizontally straight.

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i had a near death experience near counter of having my car getting brushed off by our beloved Tar college bus. I swear i felt my heart stop beating for a milisecond.

Lately my baby maroon has been giving me sign that it’s going to be condemn. Not much energy left, time for a super boost for its engine.

I think Jynn, Kenzie and Eddie is getting goosebumps when they sit in my car, whenever at the infamous slope of college hall. I scared either.

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the other day, i queue for an hour to get myself the ticket for Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince. I somehow thought it was a waste of my time. Malaysia cinema’s got a few cut scene, and the movie is sort of too Hollywood-ize already. Add too much humour in it already. Don’t really like it. Till now i still prefer the first four episode.

Still am very dissapoined with it, people i know has been saying that the book is better than the movie itself. Anyone have the book, can lend me?

Rant

somehow i think i seriously need a life.

a life away from staring at the monitor screen, away from home.

i remember there was once i read that in langkawi theres a budget hotel with a friendly environment but with rates that are worth a steal. Around 15bucks a night.

I was so tempted to book my flight ticket and lug my laptop and a good book, and just go and enjoy a soothing and relaxing beach getaway.

but when i told my friends about it, they said am i being emo queen. Sigh, travelling alone doesn’t means that i’m being a emo bitch. It’s just that i wanna go somewhere alone.

It wasn’t that everyone can cater to the way i wished to travel or relax.

Sometimes my ideal way of travelling is staying at budget hotel and having fun the cheap way. Yet again, i have zero friends that could go these extreme.

so i’m left alone to try all these experiences. Or can someone throw me a friend who doesn’t mind staying at a dorm with different people from other countries but yet with the same motive of backpacking the budgeted way.

*Shouts.

I’m ranting so bear with me.

I’ve a super-duper-easy-midterm tomorrow that have fucking shit with my country’s goal programs. test tomorrow and i’m too lazy to start to study, because i know no balls about it.

My lecturer always sits when she teachs so i call her the Sit Lecturer and this subject is be-awesome boring.

Oh, not to forget i’ve so many post that i wanted to blog that all are expired in time wise, example my genting trip, birthday and some awesome stuffs i’ve did. yet fuck this shit, nothing had been lay yet.

still wondering how to sort out the problem that i’ve created at my photobucket account. once that is solve, my pile of photos would be stumbling onto this blog layout. no more wordy wordy journals. because i’m that lazy.

I’m still Alive

*blows dust off blog edge

semester break has been pretty well spent.

couldn’t wish for more. the downpoint was the moment i log into my mailbox and google reader is was what-the-fuck. it took me whole day to read all those newsletter and yet i’ve not enough done half of it.

somehow lately all i read from the newspaper is all about pathetic politic. Elizabeth Wong, nude photo? Karpal Singh, two bullets case? Plus toll, billions compensation? Lim Guan Eng, Utusan Malaysia’s defamation? when is this fucking shit going to end, I’ve people close to me not getting a job and whining how to survive. some even go extra mile to search for their job.  i’ve stumble upon this letter written by a concern Malaysia citizen.

on a cheerful note, Year1 Sem3 timetable was awesome i would say. I’ve only classes from Monday till Thursday. and the latest class was till 4pm only. There was some miscommunication with the timetable though, some have been saying timetable got fucked messed up, hopeful mine was ALRIGHT! the nice thing about having friday has a holiday was thursday can be well used for clubbing. wtf.

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I miss baby alot, it’s only been less than 36 hours since i’m back to city.

Conversation i overheard when i’m back to Aunt’s place.

1. Baby playing at the playground talking to his little friends

Baby: Jom, main rompak bank!

Me: -.-” wtf

2. at mamak stall

Baby: Che-che, what is 山猪 in english?

Me: Erm, wild pig?

Baby: Nope, three pig. Then what is Burung Hantu in mandarin?

Me: *self think – I shouldn’t be wrong* 夜猫子!!

Baby: Wrong again, it’s 鬼鸟。

Me: *laughs* wtf.

2008 was simply Amazing

Finally after much procrastinating, i’m going to do this.Yes, i’m doing my flashback on what happen last year, which i would just saw simply amazing.

Sometimes i’m really grateful there’s something called blog because without it, i don’t really think i could remember a single shit about what i did for those twelve months that i was breathing, and all my memory would be just kept has a stack of photos and not much word. even though picture meant a thousand more words that wordings itself, but being able to just tak-tak-tak away happily on the keyboard was just simply happiness overwhelming.

I shall compile everything months by months.

January

• i start my first journal of the year on my blog with feeling very fortunate with who i have around me. and am still feeling the same way. but actually i wanted to start it with a past year review and resolution, but i just got lazy and it slowly slowly slips away from my motivation to do it. wtf
  
• Went to watch the world most SHIT-EOUS movie one could direct. Damn, thinking about it really felt like puking. I still remember reading reviews saying that that movie was worth a try and very fresh has in idea wise. i felt like throwing that asshole who says that to feed the alligator and the person who directed it be fed to the big white shark. but me being very chinese-y, decided to be very kiasu at that time to kept seated to my seat till the movie finish, or more like hoping by any slight chances that the camcorder session would be done and resume to the usual filming way. But heck, it was the same till the end. There is even a sequel filming. WTF
  
• JeffreyDidi went for his National Services, the one and only Leong’s children that was being pick. I still remember we’re all very suprised that he got choosen, must have gotten a good lucky strike.  Went to visit him at his camp at Maran, Pahang. First time going there, and the highway was practically quite emptied. Netherless, it kind of shows me that National Service camp actually quite decent, not has creepy has i thought it would be. Minus, the whole unseen spirit stories that i get to know from my brother.
  
• Parents decided to let me drive their trusty car, which i’m proud of myself.It’s because it shows that they trusted my skills. Wtf, which is still ain’t that good.
  
• Got a shock when received news that Heath Ledger past away. Overdose is not a good friend of homo sapiens

February

• I didn’t wrote any journal for this month, because i was pretty busy. It was month of Chinese New Year and Valentine’s Day. Chinese New Year was well spend at home and grandpa’s house. It was very enjoying, but without grandfather and BroGeo by my side. Pretty awkward. Last minute decision to go back to grandpa’s place, but spend my time wisely with babySamuel. Valentine was spend with the bitches. I love February, because it was pinky month for me.

March

• Bought myself 2 baby male hamster and was named LittleLord and SkunkyButt. Then later bought another 2 female baby hamster named SmoochieMuah and HoneyCloud because am afraid that my male hammie would turn into gays. wtf. It was somehow a little joy arise, because i always loved to have a pet especially a puppy but my parents dislike because they think it was a burden. Sigh, when am i going to have my own baby maltese.

• Got interested with Malaysia’s politic finally. And got so much nerve-wrecking with what happen with the politics. Follow the Election so closely that i thought i was being stupid. Quite a suprise outcome with this year’s election. Somehow Opposition was nearly same place with Barisan Nasional. Then again, i don’t even know who’s right and who’s wrong now. Sigh.
• Finally dare to say that i want to resign, after many months of contemplating on how to inform, bagi tahu and let boss know.After informing, i felt so damn happy and suddenly my freedom was redeem. Hehe, and i was informing all my best friends about it. It was somewhat a decision that i felt quite big for myself, because i was working with my relative, so it was quite uneasy to resign in my concept.
• I resign my job because i wanted to go back to the roots which was get myself a diploma. it was quite a dilemma for myself. I was contemplating between which course to choose. It was either one major under the mass communications. bah.. thinking back i still remember how i was frustrated for this month. Luckily in the end, family and friends gave me feedback and in the end i’m majoring in Public Relations and felt happy that i choose the right one for myself. i was that minimal close to be choosing Journalism instead. wtf
• sign up for a fitness club and regretted it badly. less than 3 months lost the motivation and burn papers for nothing. waste of cash and time.
• Stupid buddy TongSampah play a early April Fool’s prank with me. I fall for it and cursed like hell.  from that day onwards and i swear that i wouldn’t trust anything from my friends during the month of April FOol

April

• written the most post of the year of 2008, highest count 32 journals, must have been the semi-freedom i’ve gotten. thus, i was blabbing like nuisance.
• Accepted for my college~
• Went for my first charity walk and awareness fun and enjoy it.

May

• felt that i was very dumb for once, with cars. yup, can’t help it, i’m bad with car’s chemistry. wtf. then again, felt that there is still good people.
• The 11th Hour at KLpac, got ticket for the movie. documentary movie
• ZhaoYung darling’s birthday, but somehow i didn’t make it to her birthday. and i have no idea why didn’t i attend. Sigh, this is what happen if i don’t blog. i practically lost all my memories.
• Hatyai trip with KitMun. somehow felt in love with Thailand’s Mcd, because they have the most awesome yam pie. Delicious! watch my first Transvestite Show and Tiger Show was just an eye-opener but not really that amazing, i would say.
• Made my parents shed tears. I’m simply a very good daughter.
  
• Starts my college life..
• Travel to Ipoh for food and to spend time with JenniferSis

June

• Someone I’ve met before passed away, all a sudden. i dislike accident. and it had to happen to a youth who have a bright future in front of him.
• Hate my haircut, because decided to snip away all the dy-ed hair and become too short for my liking and had encounter problem on how to style it.
• Starts to dislike a certain attitude of myself. and had start to establish a more unfeminine of myself. vulgar words ahead.

• had a awesome 20th birthday party. celebrated so much that i felt that i was partying a whole week for my birthday. yet now still contemplating about my 21st birthday.

July

• started a new chapter in my life. something i was surpise of too.
• went to quite a few of public event.  each of it had so many different concept in it. Whoot!

[i'm getting lazy to continue it]

August

• Become a volunteer helper for my first time. and it was a good experience
• had my anniversary but somehow it didn’t turn into how i wanted it to be
• GeoBro finally returns from his overseas studies. happy moment!

September

• had my finals and was studying like mad cow. but the results was satisfied.

October

• lazying at home and enjoying mua time.
• had kind of a not-so-good timetable, and i did something real bad that i hope i could mend it sometimes soon.

November

• had a very carefree month, didn’t really care for anything including studies. wtf
• went clubbing with collegemate, haha.. pure FUN!
• Endure the most torturing subject too.. Drama! had to act and i finally felt how a actor feels. acting for like almost 2 days and the outcome was splendid. but i nearly pengsan-ed because of it. sigh.  but was somewhat i pretty good experience. hey, i’m a main lead leh.. wtf

December

• Finally, am not a P driver anymore.. but till now i’ve yet to re-new my license. wtf
• went to Port Dickson twice and each time it was a whole load of different experience. I love the beach!
• Janice’s Wedding.. the first among the clan to get married. and venture for clubbing later.



• Smiling moon, and i’m angry because from my place doesn’t seems to see it. sigh

Finally, i’m FINISH!

In conclusion, everything that happen in 2008 was just brilliant. I quit my job and back to studies, i started a new chapter in my life, i went for nice holidays. i get unlimited relax and i’m pampered like crazy from my family and friends.

PS: if there’s any mistake with this journal, i’m not going to change no matter what!

Gearing Up Soon

Cry on my shoulder – DSDS

my latest song addiction

somehow the melody, the chorus, the lyric just manage to make me felt so connected to the song.

JiaWei so happened put this folder with songs into my msn sharing folder. I so happened stumble upon it today. I think he must had put it there for quite sometime already. The thing that i like about JiaWei is, he never forget the life remedy of sharing. If he hear a new song where he think it’s nice and soothing, which is my tastebud of songs too. he would recommend it to me. I think i’ve got a good choice of new varieties of songs from him already. there are still a few other songs which i loved too. and i felt guilty for putting him aeroplane during his play a few weeks back. i’m sorry my friend.

These few days i’m down with illness. I nearly thought i was going to passed out. migrain – check, flu- check, cough – check, sore throat – check, mild fever – check, insomnia – check, sunburnt – check. I just don’t know what went wrong. in the afternoon, all i want to do it sleep, no matter how i entertain myself. i still felt like sleeping, but once it’s night.. no matter how i fucking roll on the bed. I just couldn’t bloody sleep, must have been possesed by a fucking vampire bat. I’ve skipped class for the longest time i could imagine, and i feel guilty because of it. coursework which should be handup on Wednesday wasn’t handup, duty that was suppose to be done, wasn’t done. items that was suppose to pass around, wasn’t pass around. I felt like a trash all a sudden. i think i nearly went into depression. wtf. am thinking too much

i still manage to strive it through. countless of obstacles i had encounter. i was being very clingy too these few days, my guy and my bff would be the most pitiest victim. I just couldn’t help it. I was seeking for attention, so that i feel wanted. sigh. what the fuck am i turning into?!

guess it was just some sort of PMS.

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Somehow these semester hadn’t been a very fruitful one, i suppose. Guess i wasn’t paying much attention. been skipping lecturer class and wasn’t paying attention during tutorial. I might has well just go and bang on the wall.

today i had compile most of my notes into a bundle, and just knew that i had a few chapter of notes missing in action. suppose it’s time for photocopy machine era. and also handwriting copy era. my notes are all so fucking empty. sigh.

am still happy most of the bigger plus headache coursework had already handup and DONE! so not much hassle. Guess the last three assg. would be Electronic Publishing’s practical magazine, Public Relations’ group coursework and the idiotic group presentation on week 13 which i’m still sad why on earth i got choose. shouldn’t have speak so well.. SIGH!

formal clothing had yet to purchase. I spot my wallet bleeding already. and nearly dried.

Finals in a month time. Whoot! i’m a lucky bitch which haven’t even done much preparation. Law – don’t really understood, PR – Can DIE!, EP – still can survive, Drama – Barely breathing. Other two, can consider sure would be alive. Just see healthy or unhealthy only.

Somehow i spot some very serious last minute revision this semester.

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Encounter some spooky experience during my recent trip to Port Dickson. which also made me so sick.

Early of the month went Port Dickson with collegemate, and then Christmas Eve would be going Port Dickson again with the bichess. and Beannie isn’t going. Sigh. how could four bitches lack of one. it turn into bichness.

I’m like so much darker like a Malay, i’m contemplating whether should i stay at the hotel most of the time when my next trip there.

But going to Port Dickson without going to the beach is like so WRONG. even though stupid Port Dickson has the most dirtiest and polluted seawater. White clothes that is soak into the seawater would be transform into yellowish shit.

Arghh… how now?