Over-filled.

*wipes all the spiderwebs and mushroom growing around.

I abandon this particular place for quite sometime already. Guess I’ve been busy or lazy, i assume. Got so many things that i wanted to talk or rant about but just doesn’t seems to have the time to do so. I think everything that has been drag from early of the year.

Somehow this year has been fruitful, but people that i used to be close with are slowly changing into someone that i don’t know.

It hurts knowing that it felt like i was being used, but i just can’t speak for myself. I’m scared, i hate creating problem among each other. I dislike going through the atmosphere of cold and unhappy. Right now all i know is, I don’t know if this person i worth my time and effort.

Now i shall just go back to facebook, and play those stupid games. This is so that i could forget what the fuck is going on and act like nothing happen. But i know this would soon spill, because it’s over-filled already.

I’m in love with the drama i’m watching recently

i’m random blogging again. guess this is because i’m too lazy to start my assignment.

gotta get it done by today because i need to drop by Becky’s place tomorrow to pass her my assignment as monday i’ll be late for class.

obtw, I procastinate again. like it is anything suprising though

no shit came out from all those journal that i was suppose to write out. i’m very sorry i’m as lazy as that.

my life has been pretty juicy, thus i don’t have much time to blog either.

been randomly reading blogs, facebooking which took out a huge portion of my time, and also watching videos.

and can i curse right now?

(!@*#)(&!*(&$)!(*&@#&!*&#)&$!

i just started watching a drama a few days ago called Next stop, Happiness (下一站，幸福), and it was only release till the 4th episode.

T.T the worst part was i wiki-ed the info regarding how many more episode till the end of the drama.

and fucking hell 32 episodes. i hope it’s not true and to make the matter worst, the drama is only release one episode per week. that’s almost like 9 fucking months in order to finish the whole drama.

even  after i graduate the drama also won’t be aired finish. how fucking retarded is that. i’m very annoyed right now. why lah why. why must i tak ada benda nak buat pergi simply click at those pps dramas. and accidentally stumble upon this drama that makes me wait so long for it to be aired finish. I shall restrain myself from watching the drama. kalau saya tengok, saya akan gemuk lagi. wtf. damn mean T.T

good news is, i’ve already got plans planned ahead for christmas eve. now let’s hope it turns out pure fun mahjong session, shouting session, randomly laughing out loud session.

Feeling Holiday-ing

Harlow dear blog,

I’m very sorry that I’ve neglected you again once I start my holiday. I’m having an ultimate semester break even though it’s merely for 2 weeks. I manage to see my baby and also go for a short getaway. I think that was what matters most. Even that could get quite tiring but i’m totally enjoying it.

Let me re-summarize how i did for my finals for Year2 Sem1.

I wouldn’t say it was blardy good, but yet i wouldn’t say it is damn bad either. it’s in the middle of both.

First paper was *trying to squeeze the memory out of my peanut memory* Public Speaking. Somehow nailed it, i think. Tips came out quite accurate thank god. but the last question i just hentam only. not much idea

Next paper was PRST, which nearly killed me. Suppose to think of a program planning event in the mere 1 hour time given. and not to mention another 8 tactics on way to promote a event. I think after the exam almost 80% all went saying ‘I’m going to take the yellow form from the admin, see the paper again next sem’. Yes, it was that hard. I just hope that i’ll pass it, hanging in the middle upper also okay. So long i don’t need to go through the hell of doing revision again for it can already.

For english and MNG paper, i think was alright. No that hard, just some very tricky questions.

and pyschology was acceptable, but a few topics that i studied no balls came out. translation paper was time dragging.

and also i think this is the first semester that out off 5 subject, 4 of the papers i came out early. I think i’ve grow old, not die die also wanna maximize the use of the time. Even though i know the 30minutes i’m inside also nothing could be produce. the only paper that i maximize is non other than PRST. fts.

Oh yeah, and to break the record. English paper was the first paper that I was late because when to eat pan mee with Beannie and also the earliest one that i came out because Beannie bitch is outside waiting for me to go shopping. Yes, inside the college waiting for me while reading Detective Conan manga.

blog, please make sure i pass all my papers, really don’t wanna do the revision for it all over again, it sucks.

****

My exam for this semester is also damn many event, party, and god-knows-what-that-drag-me-out-of-the-house. In between the exams, i’ve got Puffin’s birthday party, brother’s birthday dinner, Present buying, wedding scouting for clothes, Kit Mun’s wedding, Clubbing and many other randoms stuffs. for the 2 weeks, almost half of it i’m out. with the worst was, i’m having a translation paper on Monday, and Sunday was Kitmun’s wedding with ended with adjourning for clubbing. Let’s say I had the worst hangover on that day. Couldn’t even bear to focus much on the paper. just wish that i could finish it asap and get my ass back home and SLEEP! and not forgetten i went to matta fair too.

But the sem break was also well spent. with having my baby with me my baby loves me much too. The whole week i’m back, he sticks to me most of the time. especially night, sleeping by my side. It felt great having people dependent to u

yet

In need of 10 more hours of sleep

I’m so tired that if you chuck a blanket and pillow for me i’ll sleep right away.

Just done with one of my papers.

It’s 11.11am now, took 4mins to walk to my car, another 30mins to drive home, 10mins to do housechores, 5 mins to bath and 15mins to go out buy my favourite kolo lou shu fun. You do the math on what time i finish my paper which was suppose to be done at 11am but i finish earlier.

Never been this tired for quite sometimes, in the span of 2 days i’ve slept for less than 8 hours. Something tells me i’ll fall sick real soon.

Somehow this semester has been that craziest exam semester i had. Would type that out sometimes later. now i wanna go enjoy my favourite meal. *slurps

Blog Here I Come To Revive You

from the picture-less and wordful blog posts.

I’ve even come in term to create a list of all the journal that i must write no matter what.

Even if it had to be journals that happen in the early of the year such as January.

I die die also must write it out. I don’t bloody care if it’s f*cking backdated.

i’ve had quite a fruitful happening days lately and previously and soon-to-be.

From meeting with my bitches to besties till Super-Leng-Zai-Korean-Star-Group-That-Can-Make-Me-Melt-SS501.

those would all be posted, gimme time.

This is because currently i’m uploading all my 1000++ photos into photobucket.com

Yeap, i’ve finally choose to create a whole new account to start organizing my photos much more properly and not super duper messy. till it takes forever to load the page.

so i’ll spare my time to read a little bit of my Public Relations Strategies and Tools first because it takes forever to upload the photos itself. This is to in order to make me less guilty of totally taking this semesters subject as a piece of shit.

Collegemates around me are all doing revision that hardcore way. From studying till early morning or studying from midnight till morning and so on. that makes me feel bad. It was as if I’ve predicted to get those resit paper that i’m suppose to get from Chor Kuan. Yeap, babe. Somehow i felt that way.

I think this semester is Ivy-is-in-the-laziest-situation-ever. Don’t have the ‘omph’ to study AT ALL. Even my same antenna best friend at college Jynn the LongLong also felt that way too. Somehow just don’t know where did all the mood went and holiday mood just kick in without noticing.

List:

• Steamboat session
• Birthday
• Fanmeeting with SS501
• College’s Just Keep Swimming, Just Keep Swimming Swimming
• 5Cemerlang Reunion
• and many other random
• and misc. photos.

I <3 Everybody

Sad

when age is catching up with me, I don’t feel happy.

cousins who used to play with me during my childhood are all starting to settle down and getting married. Some of them are even with a baby already. Time do passes very quickly, unknowingly i’m 21 already. standard 5 is ten years back the time where i don’t even get worried with examination and my concept of entertainment is still cartoons especially mickey mouse. where attending funeral doesn’t happen every couple years and nobody around me goes into the hospital often.

right now, all i’m afraid is people dearly to me. I’m really afraid that sickness would get near them. kidney failure, cancer and god-knows-what-sickness-old-age-get.

i dislike going funeral, i don’t like the sad atmosphere there.

everytime i sleep, i’m afraid when i wake up something might happen. I know this is getting abit too sensitive but i just can’t help it. i also know i must start to take care of what i eat, or else it would be people dearly to me starts to worry about me. i’m hanging on there. trust me.

someone dearly to me would be going for an operation on Monday. i just hope that the operation is just a small one and doesn’t have any risk. People who are older in my concept has risk. that’s why i’m afraid.

Terrified

sometimes i just hope life would be much more easier.

so much easier that we would know what is the outcome no matter what choice we choose.

the nearer i’m getting to be graduating the more terrified it turns into.

the whole working ordeal is freaking me out.